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emma OP wrote

Reply to comment by twovests in i deleted my mozilla account by emma

my perception of brave is very negative due to the people in charge, so i don't think i'll be switching to that.

i've used mozilla browsers since 2003 (mozilla suite, which became seamonkey, then firefox 1.0), and it's very upsetting seeing what we've lost, and all the flavours of chrome we're left with.

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nitori wrote (edited )

Reply to i deleted my mozilla account by emma

I would've suggested self-hosting the sync, but god, trying to self-host Firefox Sync looks like a nightmare. Not only do you have to build the Sync 1.5 server, you also need to build the authentication server which is separate.. Really glad Pale Moon never adopted that and stuck with Weave/Sync 1.1 (even though it uses a mozilla-esr 52 base which long abandoned Weave, it's cool they got it back during the forking). Even if the sync server gets compromised it's guaranteed they will never be able to read your synced data, because the decryption key is never sent to the server (only the data in encrypted form is) and the encryption/decryption is done locally. This is very unlike Sync nowadays with Firefox where convenience seems to have trumped over security (anyone who has your Firefox Accounts password can retrieve the decryption key for the data stored in the Firefox Sync server)...

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twovests wrote

Reply to i deleted my mozilla account by emma

the browser landscape nowadays sucks :( firefox has always been broken for me so i've been using brave for five years

the CEO is a musk fanboy AI cryptocoin far-righty, so you gotta be ready to jump ship to Google's Chrome at any time. but their security people are legit, their privacy track record exceeds mozilla's, and "Shields" controls are a feature that i lovelovelovelove

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neku wrote

Reply to comment by I_got_killed_one_time in My brain pills keep increasing in size, but my emotional state does not seem to increase with it in proportion. FUCK by I_got_killed_one_time

yeah i would say that "miserable to jsut bad" is a good enough descriptor of how venlafaxine has worked for me. most days i dont feel much of anything. on tuesday i forgot to take my pills in the morning and got a bad grade on an assignment in the evening and i was genuinely planning my own suicide. and even that was after taking them at like 5 pm (when usually i take em around 8 am). feeling that miserable reminded me of how i used to be before i was settled on my medication. when life feels bad all the time it's hard to remember that five years ago life felt so much worse.

idk what your Antidepressant Journey has been like but i tried three or four different pills over a couple of years before settling on venlafaxine. sometimes i feel like what little i've accomplished in my life so far is only thanks to that drug. it might just be that the pills you're on right now aren't right for you. if that's the case then i would do my best to try something else b/c clearly the regimen youre on right now isn't working. but if not, well... treatment-resistant depression is a real thing.

when doctors and psychiatrists are so shit, it's hard to know if the problem is the drugs or the lack of care you're being given. therapy helps as a rule but that's cold comfort for people that therapy doesn't help. i'm navelgazing a little bit too much in this post so i guess my main point is like... every person is different and there are a million different types of antidepressant drugs out there that affects every person differently. i dont think it helps you if you discount them as a whole. there's no point in taking drugs that dont work for you, so try different ones if you can, and hopefully, you can settle on something that does make a difference in your life. and, you know, maybe these drugs cant make you happy, but i'm sure there's one out there that can improve your mood enough that you can start making changes that will make you more content. i've never had a day that i would call better than like, 6/10 on the happiness scale, but like, i've been able to do stuff that i care about that i probably never would have been able to without medication. i've accepted that i'll probably always be thinking up creative new ways to kill myself, but in the meantime, i'm putting effort toward building a life with purpose. idk

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I_got_killed_one_time OP wrote

Reply to comment by neku in My brain pills keep increasing in size, but my emotional state does not seem to increase with it in proportion. FUCK by I_got_killed_one_time

Do you ever think its kind of pointless them ? Though , i dont know about you, maybe while it hasnt brought you to " happy " its raised you from " miserable " to just " bad " .

While for me, ive remained feeling " shite " throughout. Which is between miserable and bad on the scale but a bit closer to miserable, obviously. And im starting to become a bit unhopeful that its going to help at all. So why bother

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twovests wrote (edited )

Reply to I try very hard to keep a lid on my autistic bullshit but sometimes it escapes from me uncontrolled and I hate it so much by neku

you've gotta find other autistic people. as you know, i can relate to this big big big time

i'm proud of you for putting yourself into social situations, trying, and learning. it's hard and it sucks but it's worth it.

i've gotten comfortable with just being 'slow' about things, and apologizing at a later time if i've accidentally said something that made someone evidently hurt or uncomfortable.

i hope u can find other Autistics^TM who have a mutual yearning for connection and a mutual patience for friction

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toasthaste wrote

Reply to comment by victoria in i cannot sleep on my back for a whole night by victoria

I've had similar issues with earplugs, including waking up in the middle of the night because they were so painful-- I've definitely found some that were a lot less painful than others (maybe smaller? fancier? unsure) and if you make sure to put them in correctly (lift your ear upwards? i think the plugs usually have instructions) I think it can help. there's also silicone earplugs, which aren't nearly as good at blocking out sound but are different enough that they might not have the pain problem

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victoria OP wrote (edited )

Reply to comment by toasthaste in i cannot sleep on my back for a whole night by victoria

ok i did always wonder how people slept with earbuds in, this is a good idea actually. maybe i could repurpose my airplane pillow?

though, i already have issues just sleeping with regular earplugs, it fucking hurts so bad when i wake up, or if i wake up in the middle of the night i can't go back to sleep because it hurts. maybe i'm just weird and sensitive, but it's made sleeping in hostels or with a loud roommate absolute hell lol

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toasthaste wrote

Reply to comment by neku in i cannot sleep on my back for a whole night by victoria

yeah! I just got one of these like 2 weeks ago so i can sleep with ANC earbuds when the upstairs neighbors are stomping around in the wee hours of the got dang morning and it's been helpful.

for her new piercings, my roommate likes the cheaper one she got that looks like a donut with a bite taken out of it (I tried it but I'm so bad at sleeping and needed something more plush). it appears to have vanished from the face of the internet though so idk maybe it was full of poison or something

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