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flabberghaster wrote

Reply to comment by neku in i deleted my mozilla account by emma

Mozilla gets (got!!!) most of its money from google to use google as the default search engine, but they've seen the writing on the wall for a while and have tried to diversify their income stream from that.

Unfortunately that means they've kind of abandoned their main claim to fame, "we respect your privacy more than chrome does" because they need to make money and they've chosen to get in to the same business as google. Sort of rational for them but a terrible shame for all of us.

There's now basically two browsers and web rendering engines and they're both maintained by spyware companies.

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neku wrote

people itt are complaining that mozilla is an advertising company ... while talking about switching to chrome? am i huffing glue?

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Its really fucking sad that they just give you stuff that makes you sleepy if you have anxiety or mania or if youre a kid with autism thats fidgety or hard to manage. Its kind of funny in a bad way. Like. Its not solving the problem its just fucking tranquilizing myself,because im too difficult to deal with. They call them "antipsychotics" but really they just shut you down completely.I dont think thats really a proper name. I guess i kind of had to take it because i was starting to get really fuicking fidgety and stuck in thoughts of hurting myself because of horrible memories and thoughts, but i couldnt even get uip the next day. What the fuck

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emma OP wrote

Reply to comment by twovests in i deleted my mozilla account by emma

my perception of brave is very negative due to the people in charge, so i don't think i'll be switching to that.

i've used mozilla browsers since 2003 (mozilla suite, which became seamonkey, then firefox 1.0), and it's very upsetting seeing what we've lost, and all the flavours of chrome we're left with.

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nitori wrote (edited )

I would've suggested self-hosting the sync, but god, trying to self-host Firefox Sync looks like a nightmare. Not only do you have to build the Sync 1.5 server, you also need to build the authentication server which is separate.. Really glad Pale Moon never adopted that and stuck with Weave/Sync 1.1 (even though it uses a mozilla-esr 52 base which long abandoned Weave, it's cool they got it back during the forking). Even if the sync server gets compromised it's guaranteed they will never be able to read your synced data, because the decryption key is never sent to the server (only the data in encrypted form is) and the encryption/decryption is done locally. This is very unlike Sync nowadays with Firefox where convenience seems to have trumped over security (anyone who has your Firefox Accounts password can retrieve the decryption key for the data stored in the Firefox Sync server)...

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twovests wrote

the browser landscape nowadays sucks :( firefox has always been broken for me so i've been using brave for five years

the CEO is a musk fanboy AI cryptocoin far-righty, so you gotta be ready to jump ship to Google's Chrome at any time. but their security people are legit, their privacy track record exceeds mozilla's, and "Shields" controls are a feature that i lovelovelovelove

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neku wrote

yeah i would say that "miserable to jsut bad" is a good enough descriptor of how venlafaxine has worked for me. most days i dont feel much of anything. on tuesday i forgot to take my pills in the morning and got a bad grade on an assignment in the evening and i was genuinely planning my own suicide. and even that was after taking them at like 5 pm (when usually i take em around 8 am). feeling that miserable reminded me of how i used to be before i was settled on my medication. when life feels bad all the time it's hard to remember that five years ago life felt so much worse.

idk what your Antidepressant Journey has been like but i tried three or four different pills over a couple of years before settling on venlafaxine. sometimes i feel like what little i've accomplished in my life so far is only thanks to that drug. it might just be that the pills you're on right now aren't right for you. if that's the case then i would do my best to try something else b/c clearly the regimen youre on right now isn't working. but if not, well... treatment-resistant depression is a real thing.

when doctors and psychiatrists are so shit, it's hard to know if the problem is the drugs or the lack of care you're being given. therapy helps as a rule but that's cold comfort for people that therapy doesn't help. i'm navelgazing a little bit too much in this post so i guess my main point is like... every person is different and there are a million different types of antidepressant drugs out there that affects every person differently. i dont think it helps you if you discount them as a whole. there's no point in taking drugs that dont work for you, so try different ones if you can, and hopefully, you can settle on something that does make a difference in your life. and, you know, maybe these drugs cant make you happy, but i'm sure there's one out there that can improve your mood enough that you can start making changes that will make you more content. i've never had a day that i would call better than like, 6/10 on the happiness scale, but like, i've been able to do stuff that i care about that i probably never would have been able to without medication. i've accepted that i'll probably always be thinking up creative new ways to kill myself, but in the meantime, i'm putting effort toward building a life with purpose. idk

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I_got_killed_one_time OP wrote

Do you ever think its kind of pointless them ? Though , i dont know about you, maybe while it hasnt brought you to " happy " its raised you from " miserable " to just " bad " .

While for me, ive remained feeling " shite " throughout. Which is between miserable and bad on the scale but a bit closer to miserable, obviously. And im starting to become a bit unhopeful that its going to help at all. So why bother

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hollyhoppet wrote

i feel like the term is used derogatorily less often these days which is nice

like there are certainly risks in moving in with someone super early but fuck man gotta find what joy you can in this hell of an earth

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twovests wrote (edited )

you've gotta find other autistic people. as you know, i can relate to this big big big time

i'm proud of you for putting yourself into social situations, trying, and learning. it's hard and it sucks but it's worth it.

i've gotten comfortable with just being 'slow' about things, and apologizing at a later time if i've accidentally said something that made someone evidently hurt or uncomfortable.

i hope u can find other Autistics^TM who have a mutual yearning for connection and a mutual patience for friction

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