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neku wrote
Reply to i deleted my mozilla account by emma
people itt are complaining that mozilla is an advertising company ... while talking about switching to chrome? am i huffing glue?
twovests wrote
Reply to comment by emma in i deleted my mozilla account by emma
yeah, that's entirely fair. i hope you can find something within the Browser Hellscape of the 20s
___ OP wrote (edited )
Reply to quetiapine + mirtazapine is completely beating my ass. i had to fight for an hour and a half to even open my eyes and raise my head this morning and i dont remember anything that happened by ___
Its really fucking sad that they just give you stuff that makes you sleepy if you have anxiety or mania or if youre a kid with autism thats fidgety or hard to manage. Its kind of funny in a bad way. Like. Its not solving the problem its just fucking tranquilizing myself,because im too difficult to deal with. They call them "antipsychotics" but really they just shut you down completely.I dont think thats really a proper name. I guess i kind of had to take it because i was starting to get really fuicking fidgety and stuck in thoughts of hurting myself because of horrible memories and thoughts, but i couldnt even get uip the next day. What the fuck
cowloom wrote (edited )
Reply to comment by nitori in i deleted my mozilla account by emma
can we take a moment to appreciate that you had this gif on hand, ready to go
nitori wrote
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emma OP wrote
Reply to comment by nitori in i deleted my mozilla account by emma
yeah, it's open source in the sense the code is available for everyone to use, but no one would want to.
emma OP wrote
Reply to comment by twovests in i deleted my mozilla account by emma
my perception of brave is very negative due to the people in charge, so i don't think i'll be switching to that.
i've used mozilla browsers since 2003 (mozilla suite, which became seamonkey, then firefox 1.0), and it's very upsetting seeing what we've lost, and all the flavours of chrome we're left with.
cowloom wrote
Reply to i deleted my mozilla account by emma
roses are red, violets are blue, firefox is good, but mozilla huffs glue.
nitori wrote (edited )
Reply to i deleted my mozilla account by emma
I would've suggested self-hosting the sync, but god, trying to self-host Firefox Sync looks like a nightmare. Not only do you have to build the Sync 1.5 server, you also need to build the authentication server which is separate.. Really glad Pale Moon never adopted that and stuck with Weave/Sync 1.1 (even though it uses a mozilla-esr 52 base which long abandoned Weave, it's cool they got it back during the forking). Even if the sync server gets compromised it's guaranteed they will never be able to read your synced data, because the decryption key is never sent to the server (only the data in encrypted form is) and the encryption/decryption is done locally. This is very unlike Sync nowadays with Firefox where convenience seems to have trumped over security (anyone who has your Firefox Accounts password can retrieve the decryption key for the data stored in the Firefox Sync server)...
twovests wrote
Reply to i deleted my mozilla account by emma
the browser landscape nowadays sucks :( firefox has always been broken for me so i've been using brave for five years
the CEO is a musk fanboy AI cryptocoin far-righty, so you gotta be ready to jump ship to Google's Chrome at any time. but their security people are legit, their privacy track record exceeds mozilla's, and "Shields" controls are a feature that i lovelovelovelove
___ OP wrote
Reply to comment by I_got_killed_one_time in i have a beatles song stuck in my head but i havent listened to them enough to know which one it is so i guess its going to be stuck there for a while by ___
I want to down vote this
I_got_killed_one_time wrote
Reply to i have a beatles song stuck in my head but i havent listened to them enough to know which one it is so i guess its going to be stuck there for a while by ___
oohweeoo , What's with these homies, dissing my girl?
cowloom wrote
Reply to i have a beatles song stuck in my head but i havent listened to them enough to know which one it is so i guess its going to be stuck there for a while by ___
Do you remember any of the words? I'm a big Beatles fan, so I may be able to ID it for you
neku wrote
Reply to comment by I_got_killed_one_time in My brain pills keep increasing in size, but my emotional state does not seem to increase with it in proportion. FUCK by I_got_killed_one_time
yeah i would say that "miserable to jsut bad" is a good enough descriptor of how venlafaxine has worked for me. most days i dont feel much of anything. on tuesday i forgot to take my pills in the morning and got a bad grade on an assignment in the evening and i was genuinely planning my own suicide. and even that was after taking them at like 5 pm (when usually i take em around 8 am). feeling that miserable reminded me of how i used to be before i was settled on my medication. when life feels bad all the time it's hard to remember that five years ago life felt so much worse.
idk what your Antidepressant Journey has been like but i tried three or four different pills over a couple of years before settling on venlafaxine. sometimes i feel like what little i've accomplished in my life so far is only thanks to that drug. it might just be that the pills you're on right now aren't right for you. if that's the case then i would do my best to try something else b/c clearly the regimen youre on right now isn't working. but if not, well... treatment-resistant depression is a real thing.
when doctors and psychiatrists are so shit, it's hard to know if the problem is the drugs or the lack of care you're being given. therapy helps as a rule but that's cold comfort for people that therapy doesn't help. i'm navelgazing a little bit too much in this post so i guess my main point is like... every person is different and there are a million different types of antidepressant drugs out there that affects every person differently. i dont think it helps you if you discount them as a whole. there's no point in taking drugs that dont work for you, so try different ones if you can, and hopefully, you can settle on something that does make a difference in your life. and, you know, maybe these drugs cant make you happy, but i'm sure there's one out there that can improve your mood enough that you can start making changes that will make you more content. i've never had a day that i would call better than like, 6/10 on the happiness scale, but like, i've been able to do stuff that i care about that i probably never would have been able to without medication. i've accepted that i'll probably always be thinking up creative new ways to kill myself, but in the meantime, i'm putting effort toward building a life with purpose. idk
I_got_killed_one_time OP wrote
Reply to comment by neku in My brain pills keep increasing in size, but my emotional state does not seem to increase with it in proportion. FUCK by I_got_killed_one_time
Do you ever think its kind of pointless them ? Though , i dont know about you, maybe while it hasnt brought you to " happy " its raised you from " miserable " to just " bad " .
While for me, ive remained feeling " shite " throughout. Which is between miserable and bad on the scale but a bit closer to miserable, obviously. And im starting to become a bit unhopeful that its going to help at all. So why bother
hollyhoppet wrote
Reply to Ive been off methylphenidate for almost a month now and im surprised by how differently i act now. i genuinely feel irritated with how i am while taking it by ___
i have a similar relationship with bupropion/wellbutrin tbh. it happens
cowloom wrote
Reply to Conway’s Game of Life in 138 characters by voxpoplar
That's amazing, I love the short source code challenges
neku wrote
Reply to My brain pills keep increasing in size, but my emotional state does not seem to increase with it in proportion. FUCK by I_got_killed_one_time
yeah that's a cool part of being on antidepressants. when i hit the max dose on mine i was like "haha i guess this is it then!!"
hollyhoppet wrote
Reply to I’m soso fucking Sleepy by ___
me 2
cowloom wrote
Reply to I’m soso fucking Sleepy by ___
I yawned just before reading this, so... same
Apologies to anyone who yawns on account of this comment
bea wrote
eyy, congrats on the hormones!
also I got really scared when I randomly visited jstpst again after a long time and it was gone, so it's nice to see it back c:
neku wrote
Reply to just found out what a "u-haul lesbian" is by ___
everyones a uhaul lesbian now. the rental market is tough
hollyhoppet wrote
Reply to just found out what a "u-haul lesbian" is by ___
i feel like the term is used derogatorily less often these days which is nice
like there are certainly risks in moving in with someone super early but fuck man gotta find what joy you can in this hell of an earth
twovests wrote (edited )
Reply to I try very hard to keep a lid on my autistic bullshit but sometimes it escapes from me uncontrolled and I hate it so much by neku
you've gotta find other autistic people. as you know, i can relate to this big big big time
i'm proud of you for putting yourself into social situations, trying, and learning. it's hard and it sucks but it's worth it.
i've gotten comfortable with just being 'slow' about things, and apologizing at a later time if i've accidentally said something that made someone evidently hurt or uncomfortable.
i hope u can find other Autistics^TM who have a mutual yearning for connection and a mutual patience for friction
flabberghaster wrote
Reply to comment by neku in i deleted my mozilla account by emma
Mozilla gets (got!!!) most of its money from google to use google as the default search engine, but they've seen the writing on the wall for a while and have tried to diversify their income stream from that.
Unfortunately that means they've kind of abandoned their main claim to fame, "we respect your privacy more than chrome does" because they need to make money and they've chosen to get in to the same business as google. Sort of rational for them but a terrible shame for all of us.
There's now basically two browsers and web rendering engines and they're both maintained by spyware companies.