I'm happy to hear that <3

But I have to say that I ended up continuing on HRT anyways lol. I thought I was going to taper myself off but I ended up not doing that

Before anyone gets concerned, I don't actually drink heavily. Only some of these are my personal experiences; the rest are an amalgamation of other experiences I've heard from my trans friends.

:hugs:

that was very insightful and i was able to take away some things for myself

thanks

the dangers of unplanned obsolesence. you can't even fix it by upgrading to the juicero 2.

this post is a masterpiece

Dock and Ball Torture

I was gonna post Dragon Ball T but you beat me.

Dragon Ball Tuper

Therapists don't want you to know this, but this is the way to becoming rehabilitated.

Remember! All bad things are as bad as the worst thing you can think of.

I just need to melt down thinking about an embarrassing thing I did 15 years ago one more time before i no longer do embarrassing things anymore ever again.

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It was a 100% valid request and you don't even have to have a reason for it, it's just basic etiquette?? These people sound weird

and yeah like tumblr had this kind of problem too. and twitter. just people online who, at the risk of sounding trite, need to touch grass

thanks friend

Ughh I hate that :( I think Mastodons attract a lot of people who get Ideologically Fixated on Social Minutia to the point where people feel in the right to gestures wildly at post.

It's normal to ask for and even expect people to tag nudity!! You did nothing wrong!!

I really appreciate this c:

I feel some kind of... Internal friction? About going on a trans forum and saying "Hey all, I'm not taking HRT <3". But I do very much appreciate people being okay with that.

I love the "queering the cis-trans binary" thing. I never felt very correct about IDing as trans, but between the two boxes, it's T 100%.

I keep wavering between "tapering off HRT" and "Oh, I can have another E as a treat" to the point where even this post is out of date lol.

(also, thank u for commenting on the terf criticism and saying it was funny. i worry that my posts about terfs and transphobes might be too esoteric or hurtful to consider)

I laughed at the TLDR :P Doing the good work

I'm glad you tried a thing and are learning more about yourself. I feel the thing of, like-- my relationship to gender doesn't align super well with most of the currently accepted mainstream-within-this-bubble gender theory stuff. I sometimes like to describe myself as "queering the cis-trans binary."

The framing that radfems should be high fiving over Biological Males taking feminizing hormones, victory over maleness.... god I'd never thought of that. That's extremely funny.

Novel experiences and self discovery are satisfying and enjoyable so that's fine to say!! I appreciate it <3

this reply will be kind of funny with the context of just the title and nothing else, but: i'm so fucking happy for you

thank you for sharing this. figuring stuff out rocks. seems like you've had a lot of... enjoyment? ("fun" feels kinda wrong...) along the way.

Actual TLDR: After 12 years of wondering "what if", I answered my question, introspected a ton, and decided to stop HRT. This is gender affirming, as my ultimate goal in life is to be annoying and contrarian.

I can relate a lot to many of the sentiments you expressed in this post. If I'm understanding correctly, you've invested a lot of time and energy and emotion into a relationship with someone who did not reciprocate your feelings, and that relationship ended without closure. I'm also understanding that a lot of your estimation of your own self worth hinged on the things this person would say and do.

I see you, and I promise that you're not worthless, not unsalvagable, not repulsive. You are a person and you have inherent value. I appreciate seeing your posts! even if I don't know you any beyond that!

So I don't know if anything that happened to you counts legally as sexual assault, or if you would define it that way at all, but I recognize the feelings you're going through really clearly. In my own experience I know that even things on the right side of the line can mess you up! It would probably be worth it to look around the RAINN website and maybe give them a call.

Whenever I get in a panic about something, the most comforting for me is "what is the next best thing I can do". I sounds like you've done a lot of the next best things, you're staying with a friend, you're not doing too much, you're giving yourself time to recover. I think that's all you should ask of yourself right now.

I check jspt pretty often so reach out if something comes up. Thank you for posting and I hope it helped to get things out a bit.

Hi, I don't think we talked before but I read through this and I see that the world feels small and painful for you now. But the world is big and there's more in it than you can possibly know, and more room to be happy than you can see at this moment.

You can message me here if you want, and I've got some more to talk about, but I wanted to get a message out.

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