Recent comments in /f/venting
hollyhoppet wrote
this post is a masterpiece
flabberghaster wrote
Dock and Ball Torture
flabberghaster wrote
Reply to comment by I_got_killed_one_time in a DBT coloring book where 1/10 of the pages are (NSFW) by twovests
I was gonna post Dragon Ball T but you beat me.
I_got_killed_one_time wrote
Dragon Ball Tuper
twovests OP wrote
Reply to comment by flabberghaster in 99% of self-condemners stop right before they're totally fixed. just one more hour of hating yourself bro. just ONE more hour and you find Salvation by twovests
Therapists don't want you to know this, but this is the way to becoming rehabilitated.
Remember! All bad things are as bad as the worst thing you can think of.
flabberghaster wrote
Reply to 99% of self-condemners stop right before they're totally fixed. just one more hour of hating yourself bro. just ONE more hour and you find Salvation by twovests
I just need to melt down thinking about an embarrassing thing I did 15 years ago one more time before i no longer do embarrassing things anymore ever again.
nomorepie wrote
It was a 100% valid request and you don't even have to have a reason for it, it's just basic etiquette?? These people sound weird
hollyhoppet OP wrote
Reply to comment by twovests in y'all i got some *real* wild accusations thrown at me online yesterday by hollyhoppet
and yeah like tumblr had this kind of problem too. and twitter. just people online who, at the risk of sounding trite, need to touch grass
hollyhoppet OP wrote
Reply to comment by twovests in y'all i got some *real* wild accusations thrown at me online yesterday by hollyhoppet
thanks friend
twovests wrote (edited )
Ughh I hate that :( I think Mastodons attract a lot of people who get Ideologically Fixated on Social Minutia to the point where people feel in the right to gestures wildly at post.
It's normal to ask for and even expect people to tag nudity!! You did nothing wrong!!
twovests OP wrote
Reply to comment by toasthaste in HRT wasn't right for me, at least right now. (CW, f-slur, drugs, terfs, blindphobia) by twovests
I really appreciate this c:
I feel some kind of... Internal friction? About going on a trans forum and saying "Hey all, I'm not taking HRT <3". But I do very much appreciate people being okay with that.
I love the "queering the cis-trans binary" thing. I never felt very correct about IDing as trans, but between the two boxes, it's T 100%.
I keep wavering between "tapering off HRT" and "Oh, I can have another E as a treat" to the point where even this post is out of date lol.
(also, thank u for commenting on the terf criticism and saying it was funny. i worry that my posts about terfs and transphobes might be too esoteric or hurtful to consider)
toasthaste wrote
Reply to HRT wasn't right for me, at least right now. (CW, f-slur, drugs, terfs, blindphobia) by twovests
I laughed at the TLDR :P Doing the good work
I'm glad you tried a thing and are learning more about yourself. I feel the thing of, like-- my relationship to gender doesn't align super well with most of the currently accepted mainstream-within-this-bubble gender theory stuff. I sometimes like to describe myself as "queering the cis-trans binary."
The framing that radfems should be high fiving over Biological Males taking feminizing hormones, victory over maleness.... god I'd never thought of that. That's extremely funny.
twovests OP wrote
Reply to comment by anethum in HRT wasn't right for me, at least right now. (CW, f-slur, drugs, terfs, blindphobia) by twovests
Novel experiences and self discovery are satisfying and enjoyable so that's fine to say!! I appreciate it <3
anethum wrote
Reply to HRT wasn't right for me, at least right now. (CW, f-slur, drugs, terfs, blindphobia) by twovests
this reply will be kind of funny with the context of just the title and nothing else, but: i'm so fucking happy for you
thank you for sharing this. figuring stuff out rocks. seems like you've had a lot of... enjoyment? ("fun" feels kinda wrong...) along the way.
twovests OP wrote
Reply to HRT wasn't right for me, at least right now. (CW, f-slur, drugs, terfs, blindphobia) by twovests
Actual TLDR: After 12 years of wondering "what if", I answered my question, introspected a ton, and decided to stop HRT. This is gender affirming, as my ultimate goal in life is to be annoying and contrarian.
twovests wrote
Reply to final vent by ___
I can relate a lot to many of the sentiments you expressed in this post. If I'm understanding correctly, you've invested a lot of time and energy and emotion into a relationship with someone who did not reciprocate your feelings, and that relationship ended without closure. I'm also understanding that a lot of your estimation of your own self worth hinged on the things this person would say and do.
I see you, and I promise that you're not worthless, not unsalvagable, not repulsive. You are a person and you have inherent value. I appreciate seeing your posts! even if I don't know you any beyond that!
devtesla wrote
Reply to final vent by ___
So I don't know if anything that happened to you counts legally as sexual assault, or if you would define it that way at all, but I recognize the feelings you're going through really clearly. In my own experience I know that even things on the right side of the line can mess you up! It would probably be worth it to look around the RAINN website and maybe give them a call.
Whenever I get in a panic about something, the most comforting for me is "what is the next best thing I can do". I sounds like you've done a lot of the next best things, you're staying with a friend, you're not doing too much, you're giving yourself time to recover. I think that's all you should ask of yourself right now.
I check jspt pretty often so reach out if something comes up. Thank you for posting and I hope it helped to get things out a bit.
devtesla wrote
Reply to final vent by ___
Hi, I don't think we talked before but I read through this and I see that the world feels small and painful for you now. But the world is big and there's more in it than you can possibly know, and more room to be happy than you can see at this moment.
You can message me here if you want, and I've got some more to talk about, but I wanted to get a message out.
___ OP wrote
Reply to comment by hollyhoppet in how do i get into a psych ward by ___
this did not work unfortunately
flabberghaster wrote
That is a common thing i think. It's pretty common for people to like, finish paying bills or renew their lease or things like that, stuff involving planning for the future, before...
Well all that to say my friend I have been there. It's good to have things you want to do before you go. I hope you decide to stick around. But if you don't I hope you manage to get all out of life that you want to.
hollyhoppet wrote (edited )
Reply to how do i get into a psych ward by ___
i know it's a little late, but get yourself to the nearest hospital, tell them you're having a mental health crisis. they'll take it from there. if that's too hard and you're in the us, call the national crisis lifeline at 988. most other countries will probably have an equivalent line as well. or if you're trans, it may be better to call trans lifeline at +1-877-565-8860
___ OP wrote
Reply to how do i get into a psych ward by ___
i cant fucking take it
___ OP wrote
Reply to how do i get into a psych ward by ___
i cant
emma wrote
Reply to you can't even buy packets for your juicero any more. life feels meaningless by twovests
the dangers of unplanned obsolesence. you can't even fix it by upgrading to the juicero 2.