"I'd like to remove her kneecaps."
"He should be killed by shoving a rod shoved up his ass through his brain."
"She should be slowly tortured to death."
These are (almost) real things people have said to me when I told them about someone who abused me. What the fuck, right? These are sadistic violent fantasies people have shared with me, completely unprompted, in response to my trauma.
I don't want to accept someone elses violent fantasy on my behalf. It's deeply offensive -- but also just incorrect, coming from a mindset of retributive justice.
But it also informs a lot about their character: They're not just saying, "I believe retribution is good and should happen" (stupid), but also "My first reaction to you telling me you were seuxally abused is that I started fantasizing about torture," (disgusting) and also "I find it satisfying to imagine torture," (evil) and "I assume you must too, because you were sexually abused." (offensive)
I've heard people say "they deserve to die" over relatively minor violations of consent (like someone who kissed me without asking). Like, holy shit, is that how you view people? There's no way you would ever own up to your own bad behavior if you really think that deserves the death penalty.
And this is one of the only things that turn usually-normal people this sadistic. The "they deserve to die" person is someone who I understand texts while speeding. (Behavior which, on the measure, is certainly far more deserving of death. Driving is a solemn and grave responsibility.)
I'm not even a pacifist. All life is connected like a beautiful tree, and like a tree, some branches might be cut such that more fruitful ones can flourish. But I don't think peoples violent reactions are coming at this from a greatest-good mindset.
And, yeah, I can understand being told this by another 20 year old who's never been put into situations. I'm sure I've said some things like "wow he deserve to die" too. But it's exhausting to hear it from people in the late 20s, early 30s, etc.
tldr: I am just a little creature and I think torture is always bad
hollyhoppet wrote
i do think there is something severely wrong with Are Society's relationship with excessive punitive violence. if you've ever been party to violence like that, including possibly death, it's like.... once you kill somebody they're gone forever. once you traumatize someone through torture they're traumatized for the rest of their life. is that really a just punishment, if there are other ways to prevent them from doing harm?
i think a lot about my abusive dad and i'm just glad he's out of my life so that he can only inflict his abusive misery on himself. like i wouldn't mind him getting punched in the face for what he's done but torture? death? what does that evens serve?