i miss Presidential_Afro

you were one of the classic posters

having a healthy sex life is self-care. thus, i am now the proud owner of a dildo.

Tried to talk to the pigs again with minimal results and called Polly Klaas foundation. Talked to IRC/Matrix friend on private IM who didn't know what's been going on. At least they're still my friend. I think.

Also ate food, wore clothes and shit.

Dump run and pawn stores this week, also lots of reading about physical effects of trauma and grief. Recognized that I need to stay the fuck off the news and did so reasonably well.

Agh. Urgh. Gross. I am simply not able to present a coherant picture today. Last week suuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuucked and this week isn't going to be much better.

But I bought a shrink.

I didn't just buy any old shrink, I did a ton of research before I chose MY shrink. My shrink is a specialist. My shrink gets to see the diagnosis that my parents' super expensive shrink gave them right before their insurance money ran out.

My shrink's better than your shrink. My shrink believes the diagnosis my parents wanted to hide but my shrink is going to use this information to PROTECT me instead of using it to HURT me because my shrink is my shrink and I paid for my shrink with my own money.

Last thing in the world I ever thought I'd want to buy is a shrink but this is my shrink and my shrink is bigger than my enemies' shrink so I like my shrink and I'm glad i bought a shrink that I like because my shrink can protect me from other shrinks who want to shrink me into something I don't want to be shrunken into without my knowledge or consent.

My shrink will shrink me into the shrunken thing I want to be shrunken into because my shrink is my shrink and I paid for my shrink with my own money.

It's kind of fun saying the word "shrink" as if it was something I bought for myself because I wanted to. I guess I did, didn't I?

Finally found the correct litter for my new litterbox. oh man, not having my room reek of cat piss or cat litter perfume makes my mood much better.

Replying to myself because language learning helps too. My new word is "femme" which helps me understand why mean daughter is the way she is and why FOO that devalues me will also never see how badass femme daughter truly is, not just in comparison to mean daughter, but in her own right.

Their loss. Will reread last few pages of Grapes of Wrath wtr better definition of "fambly".

Please do. I'll click if you'll curate.

CBD is AWESOME!!!!! So glad you can get some and completely unaware of how recent that is.

My budtenders want me to get medical because our laws suck but I'd rather present as an ol' hippie who just wants to have fun for the same reason.

I hate the phrase "recreational patient", though; it makes me feel like a hypochondriac or some weirdo who gets their sexual kicks from random colonoscopies or unnecessary pap smears.

This week:

My meanest daughter is in town. She doesn't want to see me so I'm living my life.

My mother said, "You're not good enough!" and slammed down the phone so unplugged the handset and threw away the bill because I don't like telephones anyway.

Next week: Imma play this 12 string gee-tar. Badly.

go hog wild

I actually appreciate your posting from the other side. I know I should vape, it just feels too much like admitting that I have to have meds for the rest of my life.

It was amazing when I quit smoking cigarettes myself (15ish years ago) so maybe you gave me the push I need to take the best next step.

Recreational Marijuana is legal in my area even though the laws are stupid and getting stupider by the moment.

Congratulations!!!! Breathing is good

just post

Understandable, not many comments on them, but that could be taken as a good sign for the health of JSTPSTRz☺️

Would it be alright if I posted some articles about fitness and nutrition? It can be shockingly difficult to find stuff that isn’t overflowing with suburbia or broculture

its not just weekly reflections you can post whatever you want here

also i should prob get better at posting them again

feeling like smooth mcgroove due to sunshine walks cbd & not coating my lungs in :BIGGEST COOLFACE:

in constant pain b/c I refuse to stop

Tl;dr Mostly not. Ergonomics, strain on your body and exercise - both little break activity and the sweatier kind - do matter.

I've been having a stressful couple of weeks so today I bought some girlscout cookies to share with a friend. I'm starting school and 2 jobs soon so I'm going to try to be forgiving (but not too forgiving!) to myself. I need to remember to waste less time on my phone and more time reading and drawing

insurance fuckery has me off my antidepressants which makes everything much harder but I just need to hold out and show up to work and not get fired until i can sort this all out

fixing my sleep schedule would be good too but I've yet to find a method for that that works

my life is kinda in limbo at the moment cause i'm caught between moving houses and waiting for a go for me to be admitted for mental health reasons

but i've been reading books it's great but i also feel guilty for not trying to art.