just getting worse and worse and worse and worse and worse and worse. it will never stop being funny to me that the diagnostic criteria for the majority of psychiatric diseases is that its been ongoing for at least like, 2 weeks. maybe for certain ones 2 months or half a year at most. but like, 2 fucking weeks bro lmao ive never known anything different in my entire life. 2 weeks???? its been like this for 2 DECADES and still no one can do anything to help me except tell me ok well idk sorry just come back in 6 weeks and see if anything changed haha

idk what sort of sunshine and roses type world medical professionals live in lol theyre all like ah well its not working maybe just keep trying and come back later haha maybe youll just find something by accident. or like hey you should stop injecting shit haha just get a diagnosis instead. like ok dude thats literally why im here because i tried to do that for my whole life and nothing ever happened and u people are the entire reason for that

oh well. i think im losing it. or tbh i never had it to begin with and i do not have any way out of this. i want out i dont want this to be real i dont want any of this i just want it to stop