i know it's a little late, but get yourself to the nearest hospital, tell them you're having a mental health crisis. they'll take it from there. if that's too hard and you're in the us, call the national crisis lifeline at 988. most other countries will probably have an equivalent line as well. or if you're trans, it may be better to call trans lifeline at +1-877-565-8860
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i cant