fuck man, tough shit to read. if anyone ever needs to talk or something, i'm all ears.

your nick is pretty cool

hey i'm going to add a "CW suicide," sorry if that's an overreach but i think it's pretty important

Just a warning this comment is gonna get real heavy.

I've struggled with suicidal ideation since I was eight. When you're that young, it feels like nobody believes or nobody cares. Either that or they just don't know what to do, so they don't do anything. When you don't get homework or chores done instead of my parents identifying a problem they thought I was lazy.

Likely for obvious reasons, heavy depression makes you a quiet kid so your often seen as "mature" or "well-behaved." Harmful encouragement like that has a huge impact for a kid and can lead to more confusion and depression.

You feel like you have to keep it to yourself because bullies will see you as a target and fuck with you.

You don't have the tools to cope with it. You've only been around for less than a decade and even a month of depression and suicidal ideation feels like an eternity.

I could say something trite like "I really feel for these kids" but that really can't express how much empathy and care kids like these need. It fucks you up for life.